Got served with 4 NTE’s just a couple of hours ago. Obviously, my superior finally got fed up with my constant disappearing acts from work, hence the four “Love Letters” when I showed up today. I guess I should have been bothered... Four at a time is definitely Bad, with a capital B. Someone in their right mind would have probably explained their gut out, trying to appease the boss, or coming up with outlandish stories to validate the absences... But I guess my sane alter ego isn’t anywhere near the vicinity when she and I were talking. Instead, I got the papers, uttered a single “OK” and went out the door.
My father would probably kill me, when he finds out about this. This isn’t the kind of work ethics he had instilled in me. It’s shameful. Even I, reprimand myself for being unremorseful with my behavior. I guess this is really the proof that I have already reached my limit. When everyday you get up and you feel that you have to drag you ass just to come to work, it’s time that you consider leaving. And I have been feeling like that for quite some time now. The classic burn-out. Never had I imagined that the fever would get me but it did.
Don’t get me wrong though. I am not and will not justify my absences with the burn-out crap. That’s lame. At least I am gutsy enough to admit that I did not come to work because I chose to be somewhere else and do other things - which is exactly what I have written on my NTEs. My former TL would probably have my head with this and tell me to at least provide a better explanation, but I do not see the point of coming up with grandiose tales regarding my absence... After all, I am not justifying them. I am simply stating the reason why I wasn’t around.
Long ago, I made a promise with a former boss, that I will do well with my attendance and up until recently, I have kept my word. Azzi’s constant nagging about being a performer also solidified that resolve in keeping my record clean and I really feel bad that I failed to keep it. Dro, I am very sorry I didn’t keep my word.
Anyway, I only have two weeks left here... And to quote TL Cez, konting tiis na lang.. I’ll keep my fingers crossed that I survive...
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Monday, December 8, 2008
23
23...
Another year, another birthday…
Can't say that I'm all too thrilled, but I won't say that I’m jaded either. Anyway, what the heck? Literally, it only means that I’m one more year older than last year, db?
Hay buhay talaga... (ayan ita-Taglish ko na!)
Aaminin ko, mejo hindi ako gaanong naging excited sa birthday ko ngayong taon. Probably because things had been a bit difficult for me in the last couple of months. It was as if I was always grasping for something. There were even times that I think I only have two modes that I operate on. One where I felt like I’m in a daze, spending my days without any vaguest hint of what is going on with my life and what will happen, the other one and the most disturbing of all --- where I feel like I'm a puppet on a string waiting for someone to just yank me out of this zombie-like state.
Do not get me wrong though. I am not whining. Regardless of all my big talks, I know I have so much to be thankful for. Nagpapasalamat pa din ako dahil sa kabila ng mga kaeklatan ko sa buhay, sangkatutak na blessings pa din ang dumating sa akin.
Kaya Salamat Lord...
Salamat sa mga blessings...
Salamat dahil masaya naman ang buong pamilya...
Salamat sa promotion...
Salamat sa inspiration...
And most of all, Thank you because you gave me a lot of people who are always there to love and support me. Kay Chichu, sa mga friends na laging anjan sa tabi ko at nakikinig sa mga kachorvahan ko sa buhay.. kay Mahal..
To all those who made my birthday special, Thank you! I had so much fun... Kahit na sandamakmak na pantal ang nakuha ko dahil sa allergic reaction ko sa walanghiyang crab na yan, salamat pa din!
Isang araw, mawawala din ang zombie-mode ko. Magigising din ako at magsasawang magmukmok. I’ll be a strong-willed biatch again.. Kaya for now,’ll give myself a huge toast, keep my fingers crossed and hope that all the birthday wishes I made come true...
Cheers!
Another year, another birthday…
Can't say that I'm all too thrilled, but I won't say that I’m jaded either. Anyway, what the heck? Literally, it only means that I’m one more year older than last year, db?
Hay buhay talaga... (ayan ita-Taglish ko na!)
Aaminin ko, mejo hindi ako gaanong naging excited sa birthday ko ngayong taon. Probably because things had been a bit difficult for me in the last couple of months. It was as if I was always grasping for something. There were even times that I think I only have two modes that I operate on. One where I felt like I’m in a daze, spending my days without any vaguest hint of what is going on with my life and what will happen, the other one and the most disturbing of all --- where I feel like I'm a puppet on a string waiting for someone to just yank me out of this zombie-like state.
Do not get me wrong though. I am not whining. Regardless of all my big talks, I know I have so much to be thankful for. Nagpapasalamat pa din ako dahil sa kabila ng mga kaeklatan ko sa buhay, sangkatutak na blessings pa din ang dumating sa akin.
Kaya Salamat Lord...
Salamat sa mga blessings...
Salamat dahil masaya naman ang buong pamilya...
Salamat sa promotion...
Salamat sa inspiration...
And most of all, Thank you because you gave me a lot of people who are always there to love and support me. Kay Chichu, sa mga friends na laging anjan sa tabi ko at nakikinig sa mga kachorvahan ko sa buhay.. kay Mahal..
To all those who made my birthday special, Thank you! I had so much fun... Kahit na sandamakmak na pantal ang nakuha ko dahil sa allergic reaction ko sa walanghiyang crab na yan, salamat pa din!
Isang araw, mawawala din ang zombie-mode ko. Magigising din ako at magsasawang magmukmok. I’ll be a strong-willed biatch again.. Kaya for now,’ll give myself a huge toast, keep my fingers crossed and hope that all the birthday wishes I made come true...
Cheers!
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